Entry #17: Adieu, mon ami

A few days ago, a close relative of mine unfortunately passed away. I'm reluctant to talk about this, but it's better getting it out of my system than being denial for the rest of the time I spend grieving.

I always thought grief wouldn't hit me hard because I'm a rather... Indifferent person. And I was proved wrong. I'm a firm believer of counseling grief through humor, but not this time. I can't even crack a joke. I've told my friends, I've received words of comfort, they made me feel a little better and made me realize, that grief and pain doesn't have to be faced alone.

The reason why I have chose to write about it here is because writing makes me feel better, improves my mood a bit. I never realized how good it felt to not hold all the grief inside and just cry it all out. And his death has given me a revelation of sorts, to seize the day and just live life at its fullest. As I have always said, "Don't let grief and sorrow slow you down and stop you. Turn it into power and make yourself grow stronger, and go even further."

To all of you that had lost a loved one, I'm sure they would like you to be happy. Kestrel, out.

Entry #16: Yo, Merry Christmas

Yo, Merry Christmas. Yes, I know that Christmas was a few months ago, but before you throw eggs at me, let me talk about this. I still consider Christmas as a holiday, but I also think of it as a way of life. "A way of life?" You may ask. Yes. Christmas is all about presents and the messiah being born. So I have decided to turn this festive holiday into a way of life. Christmas, as a way of life, is to believe that every day holds a new, exciting surprise.

Also, go try Counter Strike. It's good.

Entry #15: Paintballin'

It's been so long since I wrote anything. All I've been doing during the last 2 months is just basically homework, Borderlands 2 and some flirting(?)

Anyway, for those that want to add me on Steam, my name is Hong Kwong. That is also my tumblr URL. The profile picture is indeed a bunch of heads with the caption "[yelling]".

Anyway, in case all of you don't know, I have this crush, on a girl. Yes, I am obviously a guy. Anyway, she rejected me, we became friends, and stuff happens. (Goes through awkward teenager phase)

Also, I just finished my first paintball game in 2 years, and my neck hurts like hell. It was fun, I did Leroy Jenkins and Han Solo and Stormtrooper impressions, and I got shot after I rushed out trying to be a Stormtrooper, and my neck hurts like hell. I mean, ow. But I still didn't stop me from trying to be Han Solo. 

And, as a piece of added info, I play fencing. As some of you might know, Hong Kong Interschool Fencing was last Sunday, and all I was able to accomplish was get into the last 8, only to get decimated 15-11 by a friend of mine in the same school.

So if any if you remember me and wondered what the hell I have been doing, this is what I did. I feel accomplished. Anyway, that's probably it, bai.

Smug Kestrel, over and out

Entry #14: Christmas

Hello everybody what's going on? Merry Christmas, no matter if you're an atheist, a Christian, or belong to any kind of religion. It's a festive season, for you people at least. I don't know if any of you reading my stuff have exams after Christmas, but if you do, I feel you. Exams right after Christmas destroys the whole meaning of Christmas. I know Christmas is suppose to be festive and happy and stuff, but the whole exam thing, just ruins everything. 

I know a lot of you are moaning about how you all know this, but I am trying to get this message out there: Don't give a bother about exams, have some fun on Christmas Day. After that, put your heart into revising, and just hope you pass, that's what I do, at least. 

Anyway, hope you all have a Merry Christmas, and of course, take care.

Entry #13: Email Anxiety (edit: AND UPDATES)

Has anybody been there before? When one forgets your email password? Well, I'm right in the middle of it. Coupled with my minor ADHD and OCD, it's giving a small case of anxiety and it will be HOURS until I get back home.

Oh god help me.

(Weeps)

Update: I remembered.

Update Update: I might do a Christmas Update.

Update Update UPDATE: My exams are after the holidays, so you might not see me for a while after the Christmas Update.

Update Update Update UPDATE: I think I'm using the word "Update" too much. This Update is absolutely redundant.

Update Update Update Update UPDATE: The one who can successfully count how many times I have used the word "Update will not get a prize. I'm sure I have finished this announcement.

Update Update Update Update Update Update: This is the end of this update. Please look forward to my Christmas Update.

Entry #12: I'm back. and I'm better than ever. 2.0 Update

Hello everybody and I am back. I know it's been like a month since I posted, but hey, I went on a 6-month hiatus before.

Anyway, I have nothing better to do right now, so I figured I might as well do a little update on my little blog.

What happened during this month? You might ask. Well, my condition of "Lame Syndrome" got worse. And what I did was listen to a crapload of EDM, House and Dubstep music, made myself feel a lot better. And now, I officially launch my 2.0 programme,  aiming to eradicate my Lame Syndrome and D-bag Complex.

And this is how it'll go:

1. I'll try to cut down my lame jokes.
2. You'll be seeing less lame jokes from now on.
3. Don't expect a rant from me every 2 months. I'm less cranky than I used to be.
4. I'm officially going to censor my swears from now on. Or not saying it at all.
5. ????
6. PROFIT!

Yep. Go on, if you feel like you want to be a better person just like I'm trying to, I might have some advice for you.

1. Attitude. Again, it's all about the attitude. This time, you'll be watching out about your attitude towards people though.

2. Show people you care. Don't act all moody, nobody really likes that. You're not pretending to be cool, you just look like a jerk. Show people you care, help them out, be an inspiration, give them advices, suggestions. Don't act all "Eh, I don't care." You need to start caring.

3. Temper. I use to have a anger management problem. If you're like me, here's something you might want to do. Try to contain it, don't hulk out. Take deep breaths, use stress balls, whatever it takes. Don't ruin people's impression on you.

4. Respect. If you want respect, start respecting people. Be polite, be thankful, don't criticize. You'll feel better, so will they.

That;s all the advice I can give for now. But I must say, there aren't really exact GUIDES on these sort of things, but here's a last tip: Ask what people think about you, take the cons and turn them into pros. Take the pros, and make them even better.

That's all I have to say for now, see you soon and of course, take care everyone.

Entry #11: Post Halloween Comeback

What's up guys? I'm back after a long hiatus, and it's right after Halloween. So lately, I've been investing quite some time in pranks and video games. And that's not important(yes it is). Anyway, how was everyone during my absence? I'm sure you all missed me (no you didn't) but I'm back now and that's what's important. 

So, while I was away, I got a prize for being the most annoying prick on Earth. I also met some new friends! Yay. 

What are you doing? You might ask. Well, this is basically a comeback post before I go on a 6 month-old hiatus again. So yeah.  

(For those who have no idea what a hiatus is, it's basically a long pause in someone's career)

Bye.