Entry #17: Adieu, mon ami

A few days ago, a close relative of mine unfortunately passed away. I'm reluctant to talk about this, but it's better getting it out of my system than being denial for the rest of the time I spend grieving.

I always thought grief wouldn't hit me hard because I'm a rather... Indifferent person. And I was proved wrong. I'm a firm believer of counseling grief through humor, but not this time. I can't even crack a joke. I've told my friends, I've received words of comfort, they made me feel a little better and made me realize, that grief and pain doesn't have to be faced alone.

The reason why I have chose to write about it here is because writing makes me feel better, improves my mood a bit. I never realized how good it felt to not hold all the grief inside and just cry it all out. And his death has given me a revelation of sorts, to seize the day and just live life at its fullest. As I have always said, "Don't let grief and sorrow slow you down and stop you. Turn it into power and make yourself grow stronger, and go even further."

To all of you that had lost a loved one, I'm sure they would like you to be happy. Kestrel, out.

Entry #16: Yo, Merry Christmas

Yo, Merry Christmas. Yes, I know that Christmas was a few months ago, but before you throw eggs at me, let me talk about this. I still consider Christmas as a holiday, but I also think of it as a way of life. "A way of life?" You may ask. Yes. Christmas is all about presents and the messiah being born. So I have decided to turn this festive holiday into a way of life. Christmas, as a way of life, is to believe that every day holds a new, exciting surprise.

Also, go try Counter Strike. It's good.

Entry #15: Paintballin'

It's been so long since I wrote anything. All I've been doing during the last 2 months is just basically homework, Borderlands 2 and some flirting(?)

Anyway, for those that want to add me on Steam, my name is Hong Kwong. That is also my tumblr URL. The profile picture is indeed a bunch of heads with the caption "[yelling]".

Anyway, in case all of you don't know, I have this crush, on a girl. Yes, I am obviously a guy. Anyway, she rejected me, we became friends, and stuff happens. (Goes through awkward teenager phase)

Also, I just finished my first paintball game in 2 years, and my neck hurts like hell. It was fun, I did Leroy Jenkins and Han Solo and Stormtrooper impressions, and I got shot after I rushed out trying to be a Stormtrooper, and my neck hurts like hell. I mean, ow. But I still didn't stop me from trying to be Han Solo. 

And, as a piece of added info, I play fencing. As some of you might know, Hong Kong Interschool Fencing was last Sunday, and all I was able to accomplish was get into the last 8, only to get decimated 15-11 by a friend of mine in the same school.

So if any if you remember me and wondered what the hell I have been doing, this is what I did. I feel accomplished. Anyway, that's probably it, bai.

Smug Kestrel, over and out